Glad Tidings of Great Joy

"deck the halls with boughs of holy..
Falaalalalalalalala.
tis' the season to be jolly
Falaalalalalalalala..."
Christmas is here and i must say this year,we're getting there with mixed feelings....one thing is for sure though,Christmas is easier and clearer more heartfelt than phyiscally planned out...it's an experience of the heart..
phewwx..this is the part where I phsyc ya'll up with some philosophical mumbo-jumbo...but naah
that's the bottom line...God(the current CEO of the universe) offers us a deal,which includes that unbeatable offer...'the life of God Himself"...Jesus gets born in a calf's feeding trough,lives in the dusty little known streets of Nazareth, and later does what all super heroes have failed to properly do:He gives His life to pay for us an eternal ransom..."that is mega-off the charge love...that's love folks"...
Which ever way you look at it..Christmas is Love...and true love is GIVING,...and true giving is a thing of the HEART.
Merry Christmas everyone!

the missing picture

Ever flipped open someone's picture album...and you keep flipping until u reach those last blank pages(i wonder why MOST people leave them blank)...then you discover that,you've been waiting to see this someone's photo, and there's not even half a piece of snap that that someone features in...
It's never happened to me...but of recent my life has been feeling more like that...
I havent been anywhere in quite awhile...
Meanwhile, i chopped off all of my Afro collection and guess what...we're going through th ewhole thing all over again...one word,"mind your business"..(okay those are many)..but that's what am going to be upto in the meantime!

Black things Fade

Now before I tell you about how black things fade,i'd love to tell you about how i've been telling myself about how am going to watch "Rango" over and over again until am just saying those lines in my dream!!...naah..it's not that bad...wait..some white(muzungu) has just walked in with dreaded hair...[okay,clearly, am just a pathetic roumour-monger, Ron,you win again!
So,like we were saying..."the tale of a hero,who's yet to enter his own story
":
Black...I donno if it's just me or what,but every single black cloth i ever wore at one point finaly fades to gray..or brown..yes and maroon..or light blue..and green..OKAY!!!Whatever...Frankly,it hurts when all those things that fade were the very things that were so dear to you,things that you could never do without!
I dont know what am saying right now because anything black, is my favourite something...
Black is deep..black is subtle ..and so strong..and so firm..And yet black is what fades away when the morning comes!Black is what is washed away when with tears of hurting hearts!
Black is royal.
Out of all this fading blackness...a few of my favourite black things have still not faded..or atleast are still glistening with glory..Here goes:
That black t-shirt with the inscription "Woman of rare beauty",my favourite beaded black sweater, my hooded black jumper and my "diplo" shoes!
"He lived and he died...six 'blahblah' by his side...and the 'homies'they cried for RANGO"
CHALL!

The strength To Leave Diane,Tobo,JB, Hamza,The Ferzilier& the casino*

…fathom the deepest depth you can sink to,and fetch out for me some form of super strength..some form of flux i can breathe…some form of super-something i can use.The moment comes when you have to leave,when everyhing finaly comes to that unexpected end(it usually is unexpected)…When you finaly have to come to grips with the facf that you have to let go!That moment is not an easy one!About a month and a few weeks back,i arrived in this place,and i was going to work with 50 professinals(i think),on a team of about a dozen trainees,most of whom were total strangers (in many senses of that “stranger” word)!Hopefully ,by tommorow, internship wll be a moment in my life to reckon with…it will be gradually, but quickly "metamorphising" or subliming into that substance of which memories are made…that sad,heart-wrentching,nostalgic, teary substance…!One thing though,internship has not been one waste of time..it’s been one hell of a transforming moment in my life that i may never let go of!To Diane,Tobin, Ferzilier,J.B ,Hamza and(mark my words) the rest of the internship guys, you guys have guaranteed that my life will never remain the same ever again!I need the strength to forget you all..abit(atleast the bit where we hang in the same staff-room all time should go)..the strength to let go and go away!I hope “the M.O.D’S still gat this”…i hope we can still hang out at a live music drowned casino…i hope we can still lean on each others’ shoulders..or have each others’ backs and legs(Diane,i mean you in every word of this)…i hope we can still sit on a “boda” until it’s back tyre bursts, so that we can mindlessly shout at the rider…i hope we can d those things that most people think we can never do(Hamza..was that dancing or some hybrid version of "frog-jumping"?) and i hope we can all still be sober enough to wake up one morning,and go for a walk in town…in a straight line(to the Ferzilier)and promise never to go back again(so that we can change our minds on friday)!By now,you notice i need the strength of the whole world to be able to say this good bye.GOOD BYE(i hope i change my mind on friday)!

words of time

...the fact is, saying the right words at the wrong time...and saying the wrong words at the right time is actualy the same thing!
Excerpt from something i posted on my FB page last night:
"life as we know it soon ends!..then somethng else/someone else/some place else takes place..
life as we know it,CHANGES!"
Life is not static and one of the only commands that keep it running is "words"..
A "thank you"...a "good morning"...an "i like that"...a "how are you?"..all say something that gives life it's life-blood..it's very existance..
an "I LIKE YOU"...yes,an "I LIKE YOU" shouldnt be said too soon, or too late,otherwise "you might miss out on something good"[Dhn]
Currently, let's see how that goes for me...the "you might miss out on something good" part!
Words..whether it's the right time, or the wrong timing..we say words all the time,even when we dont say anything!

Fortzion(Authenticity) Music

..legends are made when th song they sing never dies!

that aside,i think I'm now singing new tunes to old lyrics..old music!..legendary music..
here goes..sheryl crowe and her "first cut is the deepest jazz":
I would have given you all of my heart
But there's someone who's torn it apart
And he's taken just all that I have
But if you want I'll try to love again
...yes Ron...someone should try to "love" again..some people have not even tried to love for once just because they fear they will be the ones to tear someone's heart up to pieces...
But Ron,Iam willing to make the leap..Iam willing to walk away with this stranger..In the words of Avril Lavigne this time "I'm with You"
I'm standing on a bridge
I'm waiting in the dark
I thought that you'd be here by now
There's nothing but the rain
No footsteps on the ground
I'm listening but there's no sound

Isn't anyone tryin to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I... I'm with you
I'm with you

..Life is lived on the risks we are willing to take for what we want..risks we take to get those we love!
When you're drowning to the bottom of the sea...no one knows what you'll stummble upon in the endless choking darkness beneath you...You might run into a whale shark...or better still...you might stumble upon long lost sea treasure!the secret is in diving into the sea with eyes closed!
Owl City and "Take to the Sky":
Shipwreck in the sea of faces,
There's a dreamy world up there,
Dear friends in higher places,
Carry me away from here,
Travel light let the sun eclipse you,
'Cause your flight is about to leave,
And there's more to this brave adventure,
Than you'd ever believe,

Birdseye view, awake the stars 'cause they're all around you,
Wide eyes will always brighten the blue,
Chase your dreams, and remember me, speak bravery,
'cause after all those wings will take you, up so high,
So bid the forest floor goodbye, as you brace the wind and,
Take to the sky... you take to the sky

fallin in "it"

there we go again...now yesterday i was reading through/browsing through my blog-roll with a
"friend of mine"...
the girl of the "sooner than yesterday" fame...and there you have it..i didnt say anything..you(she)didnt hear or read anything about the girl who always ends up "walking away" when i'm still dumb founded..phewx..now she has you lost for words,but also
blank in the mind?!No..this is what i call a dire state of being!!
I guess even writers fall in love too after a while..it's worse when your hopelessly wallowing in it!...darn blogging..i cant believe I'm dedicating this one to her...here goes..
To DHN.

Sooner Than Yesterday

Iam lost for words to say,
'cause waiting for that perfect day...
iam waiting for the perfect sunrise,
but its the perfect practical rainy day...
All the time,you always walk away...
&Sometimes you're gone...even sooner than my yesterday!

15 days!

"..if music be food for the soul,play on" and "if schooling be the therapy for ignorance..let the teachers 'teach on'!"
It's been exactly 15days,and 13hours from the time i lost set my eyes upon a pair of jeans...
it's exactly been about the same time since i last wore my long kinky...rugged afro dreads...{i miss them!}...
and it's been round about the same time since i last did plotless hanging out with my plotless pals!!
Nobody knows where this ends up...but when we're done,i dont see myself in this classroom!

everything is never as it seems

“Everything is never as it seems
Good things seem to fade away with our dreams
Deepest darkness seems to hide where the light in greatest
brightness beams
Sad eulogies sound in the heart of praise of glorious hymns”

This is the point where I want to say something…actually a lot of things, and/but there is this serious lack of expression incessantly lingering over me! Never the less I still get to say something (I’ve got to say something).
Ever stopped to think how all of us (yes…you and me inclusive) pretend? Ok, we at least kind of pretend at some point in life. Do you know/haven’t you ever noticed how for every person you meet you wear a different face? Surprising but true?! Somehow at some point in life it’s only your best friend who has met, or gotten to taste a glimpse of “the real you” (in most cases your bff has actually experienced all the possible characters of you…and may be not the complete real you).
So where on earth does this end up? jeez…myself I don’t know. I woke up one day and I was tired of pretending, so I decided to plait my long hair (mark you, dreadlocks has been the real Fort since my childhood…ask my mum)…you don’t want to know where the cornrows, ended me up, moreover in church[you noticed?..”ended me up”...haaha…].
People get so used to the fake you, they don’t want the genuine thing…they have no liking for the AUTHENTICITY in you. Fact is though, when the real you is jailed on the inside of a fake you, you’ll always feel inadequate! you may never get to be!
Piece of advice, “do what you have to do”…it's just as simple as that. The most important things you must always think about still remain; GOD , family (the order of the first two never changes…particularly the first one),friends, love, gifts(talents),strangers(everyday people), the person you have a crush on, the house-help, the askari, your lecturer, the taxi conductor, the pope(I think…)..as in people need people in a nutshell!
People are people, and people need people. READ YOUR BIBLE, PRAY EVRYDAY and DO A GOOD DEED ESPECIALLY FOR A STRANGER EVERYDAY!

Ps: BFF, may be you have a “hastiness problem”, and sometimes I think you are too bossy and judgmental…but who cares, my temper issues are an item too…I love you too much to even care for a second about that!

if it were to happen to me

If i happened to lose my eye today,
and you were a friend yesterday,
please be a friend even tommorow!

if my face were to be seered
and i happen to lose it to disfiguration,
Be kind enough to recognise me.
Be kind enough in the least to love me...

Do not discriminate me with your eyes
(from our talk)
Do not hate me with your smile
But love me with your heart
And love me with your arms.
For I chose not to be like this,
The winds of heaven blow upon us all
each at our own time.

If i were to be lying in state,
in my casket,
would you be so kind to
smile at me?
Then I would have no choice
but to wake
To keep a friend's heart from rapture


Kasumba.Fortunate
Poems from Mwiri.2007

BROCKEN DREAMS

Stained walls
wipe clean blossoming illusions.
cracked glass,
brocken floors...

Mundane aura
Delludes me of
anticipated sweet aroma
dry leaves,
brown grass

Dreams bloom,
But the hand that conjures them
has not the power
to give them breath.

Dreams flourish,
but for awhile.
The hand that waits upon them
has not the power
to make them last.

I stand
betwixt sweet dreams
and desolateness.
I am but a bridge
that sweet dreams and desolateness
shall meet upon me.

Dreams
The hand that conjures them
could make use of my own
to give them breath.



to:KYUni...
19/08/'09
[orientation day 2]

Kasumba.Fortunate 2009

Moreen Oblivionated

MOREEN OF OBLIVION
Just like when you were atound,
The flowers smell sweet,the birds sound melodious
The sun is gorgeous yellow at dawn,
and glorious crimson at dusk.
The breeze, still cool and comfortable,
smells of warm bliss,
But there is one thing it no longer carries,
the sweet scent of yoy.
The beautiful scenery before me
lacks a component,
I realize,it must be you.

I have set my eyes on the horizon,
and rolling hill, upon rolling hill,
unfolded by the sun's glow,
Denies the memory of your existence__ever!
Are you dead?

No sight of you,
would encourage remembrance of you,
Could have birthed desperate craving...s
But you, you are gone,and have not left even
a herald of your very memory.

Were you a trance?
Or were you a creation of my imagination?
Was it aimless wander that caught me in your path?

Whatever you were, whatever you are,
if ever you existed, if ever you did,
if at all you are the remains of a buried ghost,
or you be a living soul,
you must have walked the path
all the way to
OBLIVION!

...................................................................................


You must have walked the path
all the way from
OBLIVION!
you are a living soul,
you are not the remains of a buried ghost,
you exist, you did
you are, you were...Whatever.

It was not aimless wander that caught me in your path
you were not a creation of my imagination,Or
you were not a trance

But you, you are come, and have even left
a herald of of your very memory.
Feeling you,
birthed
Sight of you,
encouraged remembrabce of you.

You are alive,
setting my eyes on the horizon,
rolling hill, upon rolling hill,
unfolded by the sun's glow,
has approved the memory of your existence__ever!

It is you.
The beautiful scenery before me
The breeze, cool and comfortable smells of warm bliss,
One thing it now carries,
The sweet scent of you.
The sun is gorgeous yellow at dawn,
and glorious crimson at dusk,
The flowers smell sweet,the birds sound melodious,
...you are around.
MOREEN FROM OBLIVION

YOU.(II)

You cast your voice
upon passing winds
again and again.
Where I wander
I stumble incenssantly upon
your words

But ere I have heard your words,
Dusk has brought me your
envisionment...
Tears blur your countenance

Yet your voice says
nought to all this.
Your words have but been
joy and kindness
and peace and happy days.

You set sail your voice
,joy and gladness,upon the clouds
over and over.
Where I wander,
the rain, joy and gladness,
has soaked my heart.
Yet I shudder
at what the night has shown me.



to:AJN
PS:keep it tight!
19/08/'09

Kasumba.Fortunate 2009

Sands and Oceans

Sands and Oceans*
Thursday, 17 February, 2011
13:28:08


sands of searing scorching deserts,
sing streinnous symphonies,
swear to sour the heart's "sweetliness",
swear to stand between our soon born friendliness.

waters of fiery oceans,
wield angered waves and motions,
swear to churn up impassable commotions,
swear to drench out budding devotions.

But sands and oceans
they can never separate us
sands and oceans
cannot reach and steal what's inside us
sands and oceans
cannot stand between us
for sands and oceans
they are meer sand and water
[..feels like forever wen you're walkng across th ocean,
but it never takes forever...u finaly get across inte end!]


fortzionsAuthenticity.2011

lyrics from>>The Authentication2

lyrics>>Tear Stained Purple T_shirt
[tentative version2]

life will give you a best friend,
in the first minute of your life
life will tell you it's the end,
in the next minute of your life
tears filling up my eyes it's the
heart-break of my life
I forget what I choose to believe
is what may come to pass,
I forget that you're my God,that
you will never let me hit the ground
{...did she say something about positive thinking?}

[chorus]
{red} tears stain my purple t_shirt
tears and I cant explain that
but I know I'll make it through
{when dis is over}
I know i will see you

{strange but true}
I choose not to believe when the world says
this is over, we have to fall apart
After all the tears and pain,and joy and rain,
and songs we sang we just cant walk apart
{i'm }tryin' some positive thinking,dont try
to stop me here,
dont try to pull this puzzle apart
We're in a collapsing house of cards,but i just cant help it,
I choose not to believe that..
[interlude]

They say there are friends who come for
a reason,and friends who stay for a
season,
I want to believe you came for a million reasons to stay
for the forever season
But God my Lord,my all in all, He rules the earth,
He's inchsrge of every season
After all that we've been through,this our God will
help us through

[chorus]
{red}tears stain my purple t_shirt
'cause I'm so selfish I didnt think about that,
to get down on my knees and pray for you
best_friend after all we've been through,
I know we'll make it through,
when this is over,
I know I will see you



Fortunate Kasumba
Copyright 2011

lyrics from>>The Authentication1

lyrics>>walking in daylight
root>>G
[1]
it's a new day, it's a new light
new mercies falling down,
I take to flight..

there's no more fright,there's no more night
I was fading away,in the dark of night

[pre-chorus]
but you wash me clean,
in the sunrise
but you make me new
with the daylight.

[chorus1]
tell all the world,tell all the world
I am walking in the daylight
look to the sky,look to the light,
I am rising with the new sun
{with the new sun}

[2]
it's a new day, it's a new you
the night is fading away
with the pain of yesterday

[pre-chorus]
[chorus1]

[bridge]
His mercies are new every morning
His grace is sufficient for me,
Daylight will shine on all i'm doing,
your love is amazing for me

[chorus2]
I will not fear,O did you hear
I am walking in the daylight
Tell all the world,tell all the world
I am rising with the new sun

[chous1]
[bridge]






Fortunate Kasumba
Monday, 14 February, 2011
copyright.2011

lyrics from>>The Authentication

• Lyrics>project>the authentication*(2011)
• Song>stained purple t_shirt(raw version)

Root>G*
Life will give you a best friend_ it’s the first minute of your life
Life will tell you it’s the end, in the next minute of your life
Tears filling up my eyes, it’s the heartbreak of my life
I forget that what I choose to believe,is what may come to pass
I forget that you're my God and you will never let me hit the ground_
…did she say something about positivity?
Chorus1:
Red tears stain my purple t_shirt
Red tears and I cant explain that
I know I’ll make it through
(when this is over)I know I will see you

(strange but true)I choose not to believe when the world says this is over,we have to fall apart.
After all the tears and pain, and laughter and rain, we just cant walk apart..
..tryin some positive thinking here,don’t try to stop me here_
don’t try to pull this puzzle apart.
We’re in a collapsing house of cards, but I just cant help it_
I choose not to believe that.
(interlude)
They say there are friends who come for a season,and friends who are here for a reason.
I want to believe you came for a million reasons to stay for the forever season..
But God my Lord ,my all in all,He rules the earth,is incharge of every season..
After all that we’ve been through,this our God will help us through…
Chorus2:
Red tears stain my purple t_shirt
‘cause I’m so selfish I couldn’t think about that
To get down on my knees and pray for you
Best friend after all that we’ve been through
[I know I will see you
(when this is over)
I know we’ll make it through]

Life will give you a best friend, it,s the first minute of your life,
Life will tell you “this is over” in the next minute of your life
Don’t panic when you see the messing of your life
Get down on your knees and pray for a brighter day of your life
Then pick up your phone and call up this best friend when you can
I want to believe you came for a million reasons to stay for the forever season

[10th/feb/2011…01:28
2nd yr/2nd Sem…purple]

teary flow

flow tears if you've got to flow..
fall down like a waterfall
cascading down my soul

flow tears steady flow...
for it hearts when you have to go
live me soulless here on the floor

flow tears like a river flow..
take my heart with you where you go..
washing mysteries out of my soul
leave me freshness as you go.

flow tears steady flow...
where this ends up,i dont know
leave a note when its time to go
when you leave me lifeless without a soul!

we are alive

we are alive because we dare...we wake every morning without a care what may happen....we do not fear what we breathe.
We at times forget to care whether or not we've grown that extra inch older..or that extra day taller.
It is woven within the very DNA that swims within the unresting torrents of our human blood,not to worry about our heart's beating.It happens albeit our scrutinising understanding...
Midst all this,we FEAR!We are unsure!we are SCARED!We are pushed to our wits end when challenge comes our way...If only we knew the deep unfathommable power that lies in the fact that WE ARE ALIVE!!

2011

2010 is in the past now...it's like one of those dreams you have,and you cant remember how it started or how everything ended,but you are sure that you had one...
2010,is like some volatile vapour...or smocky fog that makes its presence known for a while and soon gone...and you are left with a blank reality staring at you!
2011...i have this feeling that 2011 is going to be my year.I'm not being taken aback by the fact that some Mayan acient geeks predicted that the world as we know it is ending next year...I've had this "Glimpse of Heaven",a glimpse into the future, and I just know God is on my(our) side..
Happy 2011!