The strength To Leave Diane,Tobo,JB, Hamza,The Ferzilier& the casino*

…fathom the deepest depth you can sink to,and fetch out for me some form of super strength..some form of flux i can breathe…some form of super-something i can use.The moment comes when you have to leave,when everyhing finaly comes to that unexpected end(it usually is unexpected)…When you finaly have to come to grips with the facf that you have to let go!That moment is not an easy one!About a month and a few weeks back,i arrived in this place,and i was going to work with 50 professinals(i think),on a team of about a dozen trainees,most of whom were total strangers (in many senses of that “stranger” word)!Hopefully ,by tommorow, internship wll be a moment in my life to reckon with…it will be gradually, but quickly "metamorphising" or subliming into that substance of which memories are made…that sad,heart-wrentching,nostalgic, teary substance…!One thing though,internship has not been one waste of time..it’s been one hell of a transforming moment in my life that i may never let go of!To Diane,Tobin, Ferzilier,J.B ,Hamza and(mark my words) the rest of the internship guys, you guys have guaranteed that my life will never remain the same ever again!I need the strength to forget you all..abit(atleast the bit where we hang in the same staff-room all time should go)..the strength to let go and go away!I hope “the M.O.D’S still gat this”…i hope we can still hang out at a live music drowned casino…i hope we can still lean on each others’ shoulders..or have each others’ backs and legs(Diane,i mean you in every word of this)…i hope we can still sit on a “boda” until it’s back tyre bursts, so that we can mindlessly shout at the rider…i hope we can d those things that most people think we can never do(Hamza..was that dancing or some hybrid version of "frog-jumping"?) and i hope we can all still be sober enough to wake up one morning,and go for a walk in town…in a straight line(to the Ferzilier)and promise never to go back again(so that we can change our minds on friday)!By now,you notice i need the strength of the whole world to be able to say this good bye.GOOD BYE(i hope i change my mind on friday)!

words of time

...the fact is, saying the right words at the wrong time...and saying the wrong words at the right time is actualy the same thing!
Excerpt from something i posted on my FB page last night:
"life as we know it soon ends!..then somethng else/someone else/some place else takes place..
life as we know it,CHANGES!"
Life is not static and one of the only commands that keep it running is "words"..
A "thank you"...a "good morning"...an "i like that"...a "how are you?"..all say something that gives life it's life-blood..it's very existance..
an "I LIKE YOU"...yes,an "I LIKE YOU" shouldnt be said too soon, or too late,otherwise "you might miss out on something good"[Dhn]
Currently, let's see how that goes for me...the "you might miss out on something good" part!
Words..whether it's the right time, or the wrong timing..we say words all the time,even when we dont say anything!

Fortzion(Authenticity) Music

..legends are made when th song they sing never dies!

that aside,i think I'm now singing new tunes to old lyrics..old music!..legendary music..
here goes..sheryl crowe and her "first cut is the deepest jazz":
I would have given you all of my heart
But there's someone who's torn it apart
And he's taken just all that I have
But if you want I'll try to love again
...yes Ron...someone should try to "love" again..some people have not even tried to love for once just because they fear they will be the ones to tear someone's heart up to pieces...
But Ron,Iam willing to make the leap..Iam willing to walk away with this stranger..In the words of Avril Lavigne this time "I'm with You"
I'm standing on a bridge
I'm waiting in the dark
I thought that you'd be here by now
There's nothing but the rain
No footsteps on the ground
I'm listening but there's no sound

Isn't anyone tryin to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I... I'm with you
I'm with you

..Life is lived on the risks we are willing to take for what we want..risks we take to get those we love!
When you're drowning to the bottom of the sea...no one knows what you'll stummble upon in the endless choking darkness beneath you...You might run into a whale shark...or better still...you might stumble upon long lost sea treasure!the secret is in diving into the sea with eyes closed!
Owl City and "Take to the Sky":
Shipwreck in the sea of faces,
There's a dreamy world up there,
Dear friends in higher places,
Carry me away from here,
Travel light let the sun eclipse you,
'Cause your flight is about to leave,
And there's more to this brave adventure,
Than you'd ever believe,

Birdseye view, awake the stars 'cause they're all around you,
Wide eyes will always brighten the blue,
Chase your dreams, and remember me, speak bravery,
'cause after all those wings will take you, up so high,
So bid the forest floor goodbye, as you brace the wind and,
Take to the sky... you take to the sky

fallin in "it"

there we go again...now yesterday i was reading through/browsing through my blog-roll with a
"friend of mine"...
the girl of the "sooner than yesterday" fame...and there you have it..i didnt say anything..you(she)didnt hear or read anything about the girl who always ends up "walking away" when i'm still dumb founded..phewx..now she has you lost for words,but also
blank in the mind?!No..this is what i call a dire state of being!!
I guess even writers fall in love too after a while..it's worse when your hopelessly wallowing in it!...darn blogging..i cant believe I'm dedicating this one to her...here goes..
To DHN.

Sooner Than Yesterday

Iam lost for words to say,
'cause waiting for that perfect day...
iam waiting for the perfect sunrise,
but its the perfect practical rainy day...
All the time,you always walk away...
&Sometimes you're gone...even sooner than my yesterday!